It seems I'm getting everything BUT swine flu.

FML.

*goes to sleep foreverrrrr again*

Bawwh and yes. I'm alive again. Though my paranoia wants me dead. D-E-D. Aggggh.

Hello again to all my lurvly people, missed you~!!!

Subject irrelevant, save for the fact that I had to get up bleedin' early after going to bed bloody late. Okay not that late but considering I'm still feeling kinda gross... NOT ENOUGH SLEEP >:|

Yeah, that nausea weirdness is still hanging around. Just not as bad. I feel fine now, and yesterday I was pretty much okay, even after some wii fit lolol. But at painting class last night I felt super queasy again. Then I went out, had a Smirnoff Ice, and felt perfectly fine again! Yay alcohol and its effects on blood pressure \o/

At least I think staring at the computer isn't having that much of an effect anymore. So I can get back to being a supergeek again~ Except there will be no staying up late until I know I'm fully recovered. yeah like that's gonna happen if I go on aim/msn...

Okay aside from my health, life's pretty dandy. I enjoy my Wednesdays so much now because I get to be social 8D Also, I mentioned it before but school, exams included, will be over with in less than a month. ... Incidentally I should be paying attention studying now, before they sneak up on me like they always do. :|

Also WHY AM I THAT PERSON WHO READS INTO THINGS TOO SO MUCH. /outburst that will remain unexplained.

... oh poo I'm feeling it again... *hopes it's just sleep deprivation* ;A;

Third day and I still feel blah. I shouldn't have gone to school. But oh well. Here I am. >_>;

OH. Meme! Which I will totally get to once I feel better! ... Maybe tonight? Or tomorrow? ... Bawwh.


Give me a pairing and I will write a love note from one to another. The pairing can be my character and yours, mine and someone else's, or anything that strikes your fancy as long as I know who they are.

... iTunes why you play so many romantic songs ;A;

Had to leave early from work AGAIN. This time I barely lasted a half hour.

wtf is wrong with meeee T___T

... *goes to sleep forever*

Okay I probably shouldn't be on the computer right now... but lj update requires it ^^;

So yesterday for the first time in the 2+ years I've been there I had to go home 'sick' from work. I was kinda forced to. I started at 11, already feeling kinda nauseous. It got increasingly worse as my shift went on, and about an hour and a half later I just suddenly lost like, all my strength and got a cold sweat and my hands started shaking and I felt really bad for my customer 'cause I was like 'uh, hold on just a second', took one deep breath and kinda fell to the floor on my butt. Said customer then apparently ran to a co-cashier and started literally flailing and smacking her saying "omg come to cash 7 there's something wrong with the girl there!!!111" and sooo then they lifted me up and dragged me into the office, where I slumped to my knees for a good 15 mins before being pulled up onto a chair. I was ready to go back to work once the dizziness kinda wore off, but then I got bitched at :/ uh, so I went home. And slept. And slept. And slept some more. And still felt nauseous. I guess they were right in forcing me to go home.

I'm still kinda feeling it today. Bawwh and I have no clue what the reason behind it is. I kinda felt like a seizure was coming on in the morning but that never made me nauseous later on. And I was really nauseous. I almost puked. ... Maybe it just sorta... happened. idk. I just hope it goes away completely soon. :| Especially since I have work at 5:00 today. Though I'm pretty frikkin' sure if I started feeling the same again they'd let me leave.

~

Okay, blahs aside, the good news is that my mum took it upon herself to buy me a get-well purse lolol. And I like it. So now I don't have to deal with buying one on my own. I like people choosing stuff for me 8D *fail fashion sense*

Bah now to get off the computer, as I'm starting to feel dizzy again. >_<;

So last night, with zettascarlet 's help pressuring, I got myself the most expensive coat I ever bought. It's a GUESS coat ooooooh. I'm big enough of a dork that I'll be posting pictures of it eventually XD 'cause I'm that proud.

And apparently that was the beginning of entire wardrobe evolution. oman .__.


I also got 100$ yesterday for taking part in a study on epilepsy. I basically spent 2 hours sleeping in a giant magnet with wires attached to my head. Brilliant!


HOLY CANOODLES. AND I WILL BE DONE SCHOOL IN EXACTLY A MONTH. EXAMS AND ALLLLL. \o/
Maybe I should be a good girl and start thinking about starting to study before the week of my exams. *fail!student*

ICON IRRELEVANT. I JUST NEEDED TO USE IT 8D

Hence why this post is pointless XD

Or night, technically.

I feel like doing absolutely nothing. NOTHING. And I feel sad. Merely for the fact that I was supposed to do something social today and it didn't work out. THIS SHOULD NOT MAKE ME SO BLAH THAT I DON'T EVEN WANNA DO ANYTHING.

That and I'm really tired, too. Even though I took a nap this afternoon :|

I don't even feel like playing Sims 3! WHAT IS THIS MADNESS.

And now to use a new icon.

Bawwh. this is lame. >_<

I'm in class now so I figured it's the best time to avoid paying attention to anything.

Anyway, I took the time to update my collection of lj icons, getting rid of ones I rarely (if ever) use and uploading new and improved ones. Including the cutest of the cute~ Turtleduck lubs <3<3<3 I may or may not still buy more icon slots but for now I'm content :3

Oh~ and I forgot the mention this a couple of days ago, but I got two awesome compliments about my attitude/politeness at work; one was directly to the boss of my boss after she left my cash, and the other was a younger guy who said to the same boss "she's such a happy, great worker, isn't she? etc. etc.~" or something like that, in french, right in front of me :D It was awesome, and I was totally blushing like whoa. But hurray!! Boss-man was all like, supergood job Sabrina~ and patted me on the back. \o/ I'm totally under his white list now.

And now for a bummer. I was invited to go to this 'sushi night' with some of my brother's friends today, but alas I cannot go because I have no ride. Which leads me to grumble again about the lack of public transportation here. >:| Fffft it sucks so hard 'cause my err, 'inviter', even said he'd change the time to 7:30 so that I could make it, even though they usually meet at 6:30. And yet I stilllll can't make it. Lame of lame. >_<

I guess that is all I can think about atm. Should probably pay attention to teacherguy now. Mmph. Fish are boring.

OPERATION NEW LAYOUT IS A SUCCESS.

Now to get/buy more icon slots, fill them, make a new profile, and be merry :)

lolol I just gave my name 'n number to these crazy religious people... they want to talk to me about the Book of Mormon. @__@ Why do I not know how to shoo people away... Bawwh well it'll be interesting to learn about it? Even if I don't necessarily believe it...

I've decided I'm going to revamp my layout and profile and userpics finally. *hunting stuff down atm* I'll probably lose interest by the time I get around to doing it though. bawwh. >_<

Also, I kinda feel like making soundtracks to my muses. Though that requires the searching out of songs... which I'm lame at ;___;

Speaking of music... I need moaaaar.

And I need to start actually video games again (aside from Sims 3) XD last one I played was Knights in the Nightmare, which I didn't get far in 'cause as fun as it was it was very repetitive. :| ... I should play the KH ds one *failure of a fan*

Yay for point form uselessness!! x__x

Mmmph and it's that time of year again where my romantic self is back in action. Purrhease to stay longer, independent relationships-are-lame self? D:

... I feel like writing more on my SW muses lolol. Oh how sad it is that I live vicariously through them. :| Though I don't think I'd want to be any of them right now anyway x___x

I knowwww I have more pointform stuff I could say~ but I guess there can always be a part 2 >=3

So today by the end of my work shift I nearly puked because of evil lady problem pain... >:|
And then I took pain killers.
And took a nap.

I only woke up about an hour ago, for supper. *fail*

Such a wasted day bawwwh.

At least I feel better now.

Oh, and I went to the neurologist's yesterday. And the solution he gave me? Increase my dosage. *dies* I hope I get over these mood swings, or else... feeeeeck. Also NOW they think it might be a different type of epilepsy so they're redoing all the tests they had me do way back when. *dies more* HOWEVER since one of the tests is technically for research purposes I get 100$ compensation >:3

Oh yeah and the doctor was all like "you should try to go to bed no later than 11:00. Get up at 7:00 and you'll have your 8 hours sleep." FUCK. THAT. I'm NOT losing my social life and I'm not getting up at some stupid godforsaken hour. I don't understand why 1:00-9:00 or whatever other 8 hour timeframe of sleep would be any different. >:|

Fffft. This is getting repetitive.

So yeah last week I was on a ridiculous high. It was blissfully fantabulous~ And then on Friday I went to Clyde's because my brother invited me and I actually had a lot of fun... until I kinda got sick because my meds make me even more of a lightweight than I already am. >__> Though apparently his friends like me and want to me hang out with them more often, so yay for that? \o/

Saturday was mostly a write-off. Stupid hangover. Stupid beer. Stupid me having beer. Bawwh. Colorful alcohol doesn't do that D: I didn't eat more than a handful of pumpkin seeds and water until I went to zettascarlet 's and had a baby pizza... which was kinda bleh 'cause it was fail!greek. >:| LIKE WTF. I DIDNT HAVE ANY CANDY. ON HALLOWEEN. MADNESSSSSS.
Oh yeah and a had another seizure. FML. FML. FML. ARRRRRRRG. WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ME HAVING ONE LIKE, ONCE EVERY FEW YEARS?!?!?!?! Gahhh. So frikkin' pissed off. There goes my high. ;_;

Mmph. And here we go again with me not wanting to do ANYTHING again. When I have a midterm tomorrow.

I just wanna cry again.

EDIT:

I FORGOT TO MENTION MY NIGHTMARE.
omfgwtfbbqchikinstu. So yeahhh my ankle hive things. I had a dream that I was scratching one of the more annoying ones, and I scratched so much that I got to what I thought was an ingrown hair. BUT IT WAS NOT. NO. IT WAS. A FRIKKIN. WORM. LIKE. A TAPEWORM OR SOMETHING. WRAPPED ALL THE WAY AROUND THE INSIDE OF MY ANKLE. LIEK. WTF. WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME BRAIN.

I wanna cry MOAR. ugg. |':

Just get up and dance.

So. I've pulled myself from my funk. Hurray for being on an up~!! Crazy mood swings.

And now for a recap of this past week.

First off, I think it was last Monday/Tuesday... this mother and (13-year-old-ish) son come up to my and my fellow cashier, and the kid shoves these beaded ropes in our hands. At first we thought it was because he found them, but no. He's like, this special needs kid, and was actually giving them to us. It was so sweet and cute and bawwwh ;A; and we were all like thank you thank you thank youuuu, and his mom was like "what do you say, (insert name here, I forget it)?" and then he turned his head and whispered "Thank you." fffft I wanted to hug him <3

The poo thing this week was that group project I had to do that was due Friday... since I was on a down pretty much all week I could barely come up with a paragraph for my part. ... That's all I will say on that matter. :|

Due to said emo-dom, I slept until noon like, every chance I could (and hardcore naps that took up like, a huge chunk my day)! And it made me angry because I hate wasting my mornings... But I guess I needed it. Bleh.

Watched Avatar Book 3 twice in one week. Because I'm cool like that.

Tried Bailey's Haagen Dazs, which actually has alcohol in it. I didn't get tipsy. I was disappointed :(

Oh, and last night after I finished my shift my supervisor told me she had to see me in her office. I was all like 'ohhh shit' but then she handed me an envelope explaining that someone had won like $1500 in the lottery at our store, and apparently the store gets a percentage of that or something? Anyway, they divied it up amongst the cashiers who worked at the express cash that day, and I happened to be one of them. So yay extra money!!! $41.68, to be exact. \o/

I've decided I'm dire need of a pick me up. Or pick me ups. ANYway. So I sifted through my past memes. AND FOUND THIS.

THE OH-SO-LOVELY COMPLIMENT MEME.

One little compliment can make you feel amazing. So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind you how great you are.

Because damnit, I need it. I feel so fail right now ;_;

Most miserable, depressing day ever. Uggh.

Started at 3:30 when I decided to get up and do that thing were I study for half an hour, fall asleep, then wake up and study a bit more, than fall asleep, on so on... Until 7:00 when I actually had to get ready and leave for school. And the dreaded midterm part 2.

And what a fucktwat it was. I couldn't even finish it. And then I felt sick. Because I didn't have more than 2 restful hours of sleep, I was stressed, disappointed in myself, and just overall... uggh.

Then I went to my 2nd class, which made me feel more nauseous and worried 'cause I knew I had to see my project group who I haven't talked to in over a week... But they seem to understand what I'm going through. What with my meds effecting me 'n all. among other things but anyway.

And so yeah, I've been oversensitive and emo and dizzy and exhausted the entire day. The entire week really, because of that damn midterm. Bah. I'm always exhausted.

RP crit even made me nearly cry... bawwh why this ridiculous oversensitivity ;___; ... at least I got over it though.

I still feel the same nausea. To the point where I haven't been able to eat or drink anything but water since 6:30 this morning. I made a lovely grilled cheese sandwich too and it's just sitting here staring at me, with one bite in it. 'cause that's all I could manage. >_<

And with the lack of food I was so. frikkin'. shaky. at work. but couldn't eat. mmmph.

I HATE BEING A WRECK. AND ITS ALL THANKS TO FLOWERS. GO ROT IN HELL YOU JERKFACES.

... You may have won the battle, BUT I WILL CONQUER THIS WAR. Even though I already failed once ;__;

Yay I got through the first part of my midterm without dying!! ... Though it was painful. Very painful. Uggh. At least I can make up for it a bit tomorrow, if I study well enough. :|

*siiiighhhh* I coulda done a LOT better than that, too. I really need to step it up for when finals come around. x_x;;;

Why is school so lame mmmph.

Christmas come fasterrrrr. Graduation come fastttterrrr. omfg. *dies*


Also, the beat of this song reminds me of The Sims XD

I have my plant midterm this week. And by this week I mean tomorrow, AND Thursday. Gross. It spans 2 days. wtfery. 2hours tomorrow, and 1 hour the next. Bawwh. On the bright side I have more time to study for part 2 :/

... Problem is I'm not entirely sure what I should know for tomorrow... *fails*

Anyway. We'll see if I survive this. *cough*

Oh, and it was Canadian Thanksgiving this weekend. And go figure I had no appetite D': Except for the desserts. I don't need an appetite for that stuff. But it was still sad. ... But not really. I strongly dislike fancy dinner food anyway. :| On the bright side, I got to see my family again. Including my grandparents, which I hadn't seen in over a year... yeah, that was nice :)

Oh! And a new quote from yours truly version innocent toddler:

"Careful water, there's a fall. You don't want to fall down."

I told this to the river/stream leading to a waterfall, apparently. I love my naive younger self 8D

Is it sad to get through an entire book and an episode of Avatar in pretty much 2 nights evenings? :/

Sadly awesome \o/

(~._.)~

TAKE THIS. BITCH.



In the war  against tomatoes... +1 for me~! \o/